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This is my blog where I will ramble about things I care about and my feelings and blah blah blah. Sorry for any typos, I'm an idiot.
LAMB OF GOD - 5/14/2024 - 12:41am
Got to see Lamb of God and Mastadon on the Ashes of Leviathan tour and it was so awesome. I had so much fun, concerts always are a blast. I also caught a pick from one of the dudes from Unearth. I got a sick tour tee, I will have to add a picture of it later (if i remember to lol).
DVDS- 7/2/2024 - 3:40am
My latest mission in life has been upgrading my DVD collection. I like collecting DVDs because its always good to have a copy of your favorite movies or shows. Sometimes streaming services dont have them or if there is no internet or whatever! I usually perfer hard copies over streaming anyway because there are no ads or lagging. The ones I have coming in the mial next are Archies Final Project/My suicide, and The King of Staten Island. Here's my current (small) collection.
Ones I want next: Superbad, Zero Day(idk if that possible), Mean Girls, season 4/5 of viva la bam, The Tom Green Show, elementality vol one + the rest of always sunny
EMPLOYEE OF THE MONTH - 6/26/2024 - 2:19am
Well, I got my first job and quit my first job in the same week. I thought it would be a good idea to get some extra cash over summer but it was terrible lol. I did not expect it to be that stressful. On my third day I overslpet and just said fuck it and didnt go in or call in... employee of the month right here. My manager texted me and I told her I quit. I wokred 3 shifts, the first one was terrible because I had to be cashier but the other 2 days were just stocking shelfs and stuff like that.
Updates - 6/25/2024 - 6:18pm
Redid my entire website, and I am much happier with it now. I also changed the name, it used to be Sick Sad Obsession but now I will call it Unhallowed. I am loving how it's coming out. I have some more stuff to change/update but I got a lot of it done last night.
Right now... - 6/2/2024 - 8:57pm
I don't know what the purpose of this entry will be, but I'm just gonna type because….. why not. I don’t really feel anything right now. I'm not happy or sad, I’m just here. This is one of the things I have been noticing lately is I’m not really sad anymore, but I am definitely not happy either. I feel very empty, and blank.
I’m listening to Comfortable Liar by Chevelle. I have some epic plans for later….. Not really I'm just gonna get really high and watch Youtube while struggling to keep my eyes open. Or maybe I’ll watch a movie or something, idk yet. I like getting super high, to where you feel like you’re on another PLANET. Fighting off the sleep and the relaxation that flows over me. Sometimes I just say fuck it and go to sleep, but I like to stay up for it. I like how it feels. I love to just get high and zone out. I also might go get a Slurpee and some snacks before I get fried, if I feel like it. This is all my life is right now. There's not much to do. I wish I didn't have to do drugs to have fun and feel good. I mean I guess I dont HAVE to do that. I could quit weed and stop drinking right now, but my life would be sooooooooooooooooooooooooo much more boring.
Well this was a weird entry, I thought it might have been cool to just type without a plan/topic but idk what this is lmao.
NEW MERCH!! - 5/14/2024 - 9:40pm
My KMFDM merch came in today! I love it so much ^_^ They sent me a sticker with it too, which sounds dumb but I really like stickers (I mean who doesn't)
Sometimes - 5/7/2024 - 11:48pm
Sometimes living sucks and just the thought of having to exist and intereact with people makes me want to blow my head off. I just want to be a normal person who can function in this society normally but I dont know if that will ever happen. Im barely hanging on but what does it matter. Everyting just keep building up inside of me. I do dumb shit to try and feel better but it always comes back. I've been drinking a lot lately to escape but that only lasts so long. I used to hurt myself a lot and still do sometimes but that doesnt help anything either, it just proves to myself that I am a piece of shit. There's no point to our existence and it's hard to want to keep going when everything feels pointless. In the end its up to me what I do maybe I will kill myself, maybe I wont I honestly just know anymore. Im honestly just so fucking sad and empty at this point.
THIS SITE - 5/6/2024 - 1:50am
I have been having so much fun making this site over the past couple of weeks. I like being able to make my own little corner of the internet and being able to make it however I want. I don't know why but this project has been a lot of fun and it gives me somewhere to express myself and talk about everything I am interested in. I feel like I could just keep adding and updating stuff forver. The worst part is I'm not even good at coding and my site isn't even that cool but I love it because I made it, does that sound corny/lame? Probably but who cares.
REB DOOMER - 4/30/2024 - 1:03am
I checked out an archive of REB's webpages and it was honestly pretty cool. I wish I could have met him and had conversation with him. He is very interesting to me. It's crazy to think he died before I was even born. Him and V should still be alive, if only people cared about kids like us. No one cares until you do something drastic like kill yourself or yknow the whole blow up your school thing. People always talk about the warnings signs after someone is gone but they never do anything about it when they are here.
Lifelover, Homicidal Tendencies - 4/23/2024 - 2:56am
I want to smile and laugh
Without having to be polite
I want to understand people
Instead of feeding off their misery
I want to help those in need
Not fuck it up for every fucker
But mainly I want to kill everyone else
And then myself
First Entry - 4/21/2024 - 1:16am
This is my first blog entry. Idk how much I will actually blog, but the idea of having on sounded cool lol. We will see. I am currently listening to Paradise by KMFDM.